It's been a long time since I have posted anything on my blog. A lot of that is because I have been dealing with a lot of health issues, and realizing through them that I wasn't thinking as well as I would like to. I was afraid I might write something I would regret later. But I realize things are getting better, perhaps I should share something I am learning or observing right now in life. One thing that has been interesting is observing 'thoughts.' It's something I don't hear talked about much, and although I don't understand it all, I will try to explain the things that I have learned through my experiences and others I have observed.
For me, thoughts are not always who we are. They are a piece of us, and can let us know more about what is going on, but they aren't the whole picture. My thoughts can change very easily through lack of sleep, eating something that doesn't work for my body, types of music, songs or books I read, etc. I remember the first time I had my first 'ah-ha' experience with this. It was several years ago. I was feeling great and had gone to get an ice cream cone at McDonald's. While eating it I realized that my thoughts had suddenly turned from being happy to depressed. I was starting to think my life was horrible and there was nothing good about it. I took 'a step back' in a sense and just observed the thoughts going through my head. I couldn't believe how quickly they had changed. That was the last McDonald's ice cream cone I have eaten - actually any ice cream. I started to see that my body doesn't do well with it. But back to thoughts... from then I started to realize that I shouldn't take my thoughts as seriously as I do at times. Sometimes I misinterpret my thoughts. Thoughts I take literally may just be another way for my body to try to communicate to me about what is going on inside. An example of this is from a friend I have who is currently dealing with a lot of anxiety, fear and paranoia. Watching her go through these and trying to convince her that what she is seeing and feeling is not really happening is hard. She couldn't understand how they could not be real - because it feels real to her. She is starting to understand more of what is going on with her body and why she is all of a sudden experiencing these issues. But it is still hard for her to not believe all her thoughts.
Right now I am starting to learn more about when I need to NOT take my my thoughts seriously. Starting to see when I am having a not too good health day, and to perhaps not to take too many emails or telephone calls seriously. I'm learning it's better better for me to not respond right away, but to wait perhaps a day to see if I feel the same on the subject. It's definitely a been learning process.
So thoughts are an interesting subject and I can see I really only see a small piece of it. I feel like I have been pondering on this subject though more frequently. Have you noticed any thing about your thoughts? When do you know you can trust them, and when to just let them go? hmmm... something to think about....
